25 December 2005

he texted me at last! he just replied to my text greeting him a happy christmas.... and he called me honey on his reply. oh man! this is the one of my best christmas ever! well, i just thought i'd let u know. hahaha.

back to work on the 27th. fun! i'll get to see him again. hehe. =)

good night and happy christmas everyone!!!

24 December 2005

not a bad day after all!!! we kissed and made up right? that's not all...our team planned to go out after work since it's gonna be the last time we'll be together before christmas. plus, we won't be back to work until tuesday so that's gonna be a 3-day break. oh i'm gonna miss my honey so much! well anyway, we invited him and our other friend to come with us and he said he won't promise because i might get mad again. at least he knows!! haha...

so we went out (our training class is dismissed 30 mins ahead of them) and they came! oh that is so great. actually their class has plans also but he said he went to our first coz he's afraid i might get mad at him again. after all, we just made up. =) we didn't stay long but it was lots of fun. they said we're going to do it again thursday of next week because we won't have work again on the 30th. that's another 3 days off. =( my honey..... waaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

i got my 2nd kiss when we all went our separate ways to go home. well, he kissed all the girls anyway. hahah! i waited the whole day for him to greet me through text though but... christmas is not yet over anyway....i have the whole day to wait... but if not, i won't get mad... maybe he's just busy right?

i have to admit, he's my inspiration right now. i don't know, maybe it's just infatuation. i can't say i'm in love. i don't know what to do for him to notice me. i'm fat, he's fit... i'm short, he's tall (6 ft mind you!)... i'm poor, he's rich... i'm ugly, he's sooooo cute... i take the jeep, he rides an altis... *ok, snap out of it your highness* what should i do? i'm on a diet right now and i started monday. i lost 8 lbs eversince! effective huh? let's just see what will happen to my love novel. *sigh* maybe i should try to put on some make up huh? aarrrgghh! i don't know what to do. i need some advice. what should i do for him to notice me?

mind over matter..... think positive your highness...

24 December 2005 00:21

i wasn't able to see him before i went home. =( but that's fine. it's a wonderful day!!! i texted him before i went to bed and this after-10-years-reply-guy answered back while i was taking a bath (preparing for work). i told him i'm not mad at him, just annoyed. and he said sorry and called me honey again. wooooooooo hooooooo!!! (*heart thumping*) told him i'm now ok with him and that i love him again. (hidden message) hahaha! that's supposed to be half-true. but hey...

i was almost late today. i hate the traffic in the expressway!! it's the worst. well actually, it's just for the this whole week. maybe mainly because of the season. a lot of people going to the province you know. but it's fine with me. i wasn't late anyway. the best part of today (so far) is here in the office. it was our break...we were at the training lounge....honey's class was on bathroom break....so he saw us and approached....he said hi to me....smiled...and kissed me again!! (on the cheek) better that than never right? so we kissed and made up. but before that, when he was about to kiss me, i puckered up and he laughed so much. =*( that was so mean! i wanted to be kissed on the lips but when he laughed i told him it was a joke. it was true though! i thought i'll get my chance today. too bad! then our trainor passed and my girl friend introduced honey to him as my boyfriend. know what the brat did? he said "no she's not!" ooohh, i wanted so much to punch him on the nose. but that's fine. everyone knows we're not. it's just me.... just the stupid me...

oh, i forgot to tell u i gave him a small christmas present. i just hope he appreciates it. it's a collection of thoughts and everyday advise. aaahh, he better not recycle it or i'll kill him!

it's only our lunch time now so the day has not ended yet. i'm still waiting for a better part of the best. know what i mean? hey...we never know....maybe...... =)

23 December 2005

the most unexpected thing happen. he's not the one avoiding me! i can't take it. aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggghhhh!!! i'm going to die. i didn't want this to happen. maybe i overdid it. ooohhh! i hate myself!

the first half of my day was ok. he was still saying sorry and he even sat beside me at the office lounge. my friends gave way. they told him to kiss me and he wanted to oblige but i didn't. he kept asking me if i'm still mad at him and i said no. but in a cold tone, unlike my friendly tone before. well, my answer was true but i don't think i can still do our 'sitcom' love story anymore because i'll fall really hard. know what i mean? if he keeps jumping in, it would be very hard for me to avoid being in-love with him. oh heaven help me! what am i going to do?

oh now for the second part of the day, my team was at the 4th floor for our buddy up. when we came down, i saw him sitting at the lounge with my friends. and when he saw me, he stood up and walked away through the other door. now it's the other way around!!!! he's now the one avoiding me. oooh, i'll never forgive myself. i don't want this to happen.

at the end of our shift, at the locker rooms, i saw his team mate and friend and asked him to say hi to my 'honey' for me. oh, i hope i'm not too late. i don't want him to hate nor avoid me. now i'm here in the internet area doing this and waiting for him. let's just hope he's still outside so i can talk to him. =( if not, i'll just text him.

so i'll wrap up now and see what will happen....

22 December 2005

i'm so annoyed! i don't know why i'm feeling this way. what happened? well last sunday, my office friends and i are supposed to go to our friend's house because it's his son's christening. my friend invited him to come and he said he will. on sunday, we even called 'honey' and he said he will try to come but he didn't! we waited for him for about 3 hours but he never came, not even his shadow. not even a text nor a phone call to say he can't come. but no, we still waited. so here i am, not minding him. he kept asking why i'm acting this way and he doesn't know! a very good friend of mine told him about it and i guess he now realized what he's done wrong. it's not that i am mad at him. just annoyed. oh men! you can't live with them and can't live without them.

you know what he kept doing? he was *almost* hugging me and saying sorry but no, the hardheaded girl that i am, ignored him. he wanted to kiss me (due to my friends' teases but i know it doesn't come from his heart). but hey, he had to learn his lesson right? i just wanted him to realize that it was rude and mean to let us wait. my friends are not mad at him, it's just me who's overreacting because i wanted him to notice me more. haha! bad girl eh? but really, i want the attention he's giving me now. maybe i'll talk to him again on friday, just before christmas. let's just hope he'd still want to kiss me again because i will never ever avoid him anymore.

=Þ

21 December 2005

i decided to create an online journal for me to keep or track my daily activities. i could've written it on a diary instead but there's a chance that my family members might read it. but online, i could put my feelings into words anonymously.

the main reason i created this is to write my everyday life and love story. it's quite funny but may be very interesting for you. you might even get a lesson out of this.

ok, now for my first entry...

have you ever had this feeling that you want your crush or the person you like to like you too? it's weird. i like this guy at work. he's tall, nice and very manly. most of my friends in the office say he's cute and he's the best looking guy in our team. at first i didn't notice him because he sits far away from me. that was on our first day at work. on the second day, he sat beside me and i teased him that he likes me that's why he moved. he jumped on my joke and started teasing me about it too. then he told me to remember the date and time because starting then, we're on. that was on the 30th of november 2005 1:35 pm. it was really funny because we became a couple. well at least for our training class. everyday we would tease each other and the rest of the class would jump in. then it happened. i didn't notice when but i started to like him, as in like him. i didn't want him to know because after all, i have a boyfriend of 6 years (on and off). i thought to myself, maybe it's just admiration in the absence of my boyfriend who works abroad (and will be back home on february). know what i mean? ok, let's just pretend that he doesn't exist. =Þ

going back to the subject, i started to not tease him anymore because i'm kinda falling for him. but he kept on calling me 'honey', which is our term of endearment to each other. sometimes, even outside our office building, i would still call him 'honey', which is now kinda natural for me. he didn't notice anyway. he just smiles when i do that. i know he doesn't like me. i'm just a friend for him.

then he was called to transfer to another account and that's when everything started to go hayward. our schedules were conflict but i would still try to make a way to see him. i would stay for a couple of hours more in the office just to see him.

during our christmas party, i appreciated what he did when he tried to attend even if he was from a place far from our office. it was about a couple of hours drive. he attended his friend's birthday party there. i didn't know that but had he told me so, i would've just tell him to go home and rest from a long drive. that was so sweet of him. sometimes i would think that he likes me too that's why he did that. there was once a guest speaker in the office who said our brain waives are powerful. if you want a person to like you, just think about it often and it will come true. i did just that and still doing it. too bad there's no outcome yet. =(